things I want to change

As mentioned in my previous post, you read it right? I have made a list of things I’m not happy with in my life. Things that need some attention/work/changes. Here they are, in no order other than completely random:

  • dog behavior
  • money
  • health
  • organization
  • creativity
  • spirituality
  • garden
  • isolation
  • family relationships
  • mental health
  • happiness

You will note that dog behavior is at the top of the list. That is purely because someone dared to walk by my house while I was making the list and the two darling dogs I share my life with (not sure the sarcasm came through there?) decided to announce to the world that they had heard that person and were ready at a moment’s notice to run outside and bark ferociously until that person is Out Of Sight. I love ’em but sometimes I think they’d be happier with Jesus. My husband has threatened to make that happen.

So I need to decide which topic to address first. It seems like a huge undertaking but I’m not going to spend too much time thinking about it. That’s part of my problem. I think about everything. All the time. So, in the interests of paying my bills on time and having somewhere to put my computer again I have decided to start with organization.

I am actually a pretty organized person. I am lover of order. I don’t have much clutter in my house (moved too many times to keep carting useless stuff around). And yet my office space, which makes it sound much grander than it is. It is a third bedroom that is used as computer room, crafting area, storage for cookery books, paperwork, guest bedroom, and so on and so on – is functionally impaired. OK, it’s a mess. It needs work.

I’m going to tackle it in four stages:

  • Purge
  • organize
  • purchase appropriate solutions if necessary
  • maintain

To demonstrate the lack of functionality it just took me ten minutes to find a camera that turned out to not be charged. Sigh…

It’s a beautiful antique desk and deserves to be treated better than this.

where papers from my desk migrate to

the only storage in the room, which all has to be moved when we have guests

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I paid a lot of money to move this desk from England to pile crap all over it.

I hope you enjoyed my shameful before pics. Now I need to go get on with sorting it out. I’m planning to spend no more than an hour a day on this. I have other stuff that needs doing, like cooking, shopping, showering, watching Dance Moms – don’t judge me – and I’m working on the principal of evolution not revolution remember? I’ll update in a week. I promise. No, honestly I will. You hang up first.

the theory behind the blog

I am not a writer,  I am ….. um, having trouble with this. Why can I not complete that sentence? Why have I sat at my computer and spent many minutes trying to figure that out. It really shouldn’t be such a hard question. I am many things, in no particular order I am wife, mom, homeowner, pet owner, sister, aunt, friend, neighbor, immigrant. It’s easy to quantify what I am to other people, not so easy when it comes to what I am to myself.

Wow, we’re getting deep and it’s only post number 1! What this blog is, is an attempt by a normal person (that’s me!) to improve my life. One week at a time. Evolution not revolution.

Some background: I’m 45 years old, live in the USA having been raised in the UK. After working for many years in finance and administration I left the workforce to raise my son. I consider myself kind and caring, a non-smoker, dog lover, cheese lover, baker, sausage maker, drinker. I’ve been with my husband for 27 years and still enjoy his company above all others.

But something has to change because although I have happy times or moments or days, I would not consider myself satisfied with my life. I feel like I’m a beat behind, I’m never quite on top of things. I often tidy one room at the expense of another. I have many unfinished projects. I hope this doesn’t become one of them.

So, this year – of course I’m starting in February because I wasn’t organized enough to start at the beginning of the calendar year – I’m planning to change things up a bit. Not in the realms of sell the house and buy a farm, although I would love some chickens. More in the realms of clean out the junk draw or take the dogs for a walk. Chickens might come later but I’m not ready just yet. Junk first, then chickens. Junk then chickens. Junk chickens. Drunk chickens? Get a grip Suzie!

My plan? I hear no one but the strange voice in my head ask. Make a list of things I am unhappy with and would like to change (already done – hey this could work!). Take one thing of the list each week and work in a smallish change. Do it all week and see if it helps. If it does, keep doing it, if not try something else another time. Then document the journey, success or failure and hope there are more wins than fails.

Here we go. Oh, by the way as I said at the beginning of this post, not a writer, OK? I have no idea what the present indicative is, I could just about identify a split infinitive but use them anyway. All the time. I actually like them. I also don’t know how to spell some words, words like successess I mean I know roughly, enough to get my point accross I feel, and I will correcct when I can but don’t judge me. I’m human or very nearly.